I feel as though over the passed few months I have been blessed to experience a few really lovely spiritual moments that I've been desperate to share on my blog. I've been thinking about it since Friday, trying to decide what would be best, or most appropriate, or the nicest to share. And then yesterday afternoon something happened. Something seemingly quite insignificant, but wonderful and powerful at the same time.
Peter and I were sat in Sacrament meeting yesterday afternoon. We had enjoyed three wonderful talks so far, but I was feeling tired and heavy and my eyes started to sneak peeks at the clock every half-a-minute or so; I was desperate to go home. But it was okay, as all that was left was the closing hymn and prayer.
Usually at this time during Church, Pete becomes a little restless; a little eager to sing, pray and get home; a little bit silly :) This Sunday was no different, and he never fails to make me giggle. But as I was feeling irritable I tried to stifle the smirk on my face and pretend I thought he was being immature (usual marriage banter). But then my mind was suddenly turned to the words of the hymn, and my throat started to ache in that familiar way. Pete immediately began to apologise thinking he'd done something wrong, when really, it was a moment of me realising that he was doing the exact opposite; he was doing everything right, and I was completely overwhelmed with this huge mix of feelings that I don't think anybody would ever be able to put into words. But I started to think about three things that I know;
- Here was my husband, by my side, his arm around me. He loves me and I love him, more than anything in the world. He's my beacon of everything lovely; light, hope, love - I am so, so, lucky to have him, to have him to love me, and that we are a family.
- Together, we have two beautiful children that are completely ours. No matter what. We are sealed for Eternity in the Temple, and have made and keep covenants which mean that we have a bond that cannot be broken, as long as we always keep those covenants.
- And the third; it's all thanks to my Saviour, Jesus Christ.
The hymn that was being sung by the congregation at that time was "I Believe in Christ". I have always loved this hymn. At that moment I was not singing it out loud, but in my heart I was belting the words. I was completely overcome with love for my Saviour, and gratitude for all that He has done for me.
In that moment I could hardly believe how lucky I am. I repeat the words of my previous post; I am incredibly blessed.
Life is not always what we expect it to be; what we hope, imagine, or dream it to be it sometimes just isn't.
When I was younger I had expectations, hopes, images and dreams of my life, and I have been so blessed, for some of those wishes have come true. And there are other things that haven't turned out the way I thought they would, but that's okay. Because for all that I lack, in myself, in my heart and in my mind - as long as I am always trying my absolute hardest - my Saviour will make up for.
I believe in Christ; he is my King!
With all my heart to him I’ll sing;
I’ll raise my voice in p r a i s e and j o y,
In grand Amen’s my tongue employ.
I believe in Christ; he is God’s Son.
On earth to dwell his soul did come.
He h e a l e d the sick; the dead he raised.
Good works were his; his name be praised.
I believe in Christ; oh blessed name!
As Mary’s Son he came to reign
’Mid mortal men, his earthly kin,
To save them from the woes of sin.
I believe in Christ, who marked the path,
Who did gain all his Father hath,
Who said to men: “Come, follow me,
That ye, my friends, with God may be.”
I believe in Christ—my Lord, my God!
My feet he plants on gospel sod.
I’ll w o r s h i p him with all my might;
He is the source of truth and light.
I believe in Christ; he ransoms me.
From Satan’s grasp he sets me free,
And I shall LIVE with j o y and l o v e
In his eternal courts above.
I believe in Christ; he stands supreme!
From him I’ll gain my fondest dream;
And while I strive through g r i e f and p a i n,
His voice is heard: “Ye shall obtain.”
I believe in Christ; so come what may,
With him I’ll STAND in that great day
When on this earth he comes again
To rule among the sons of men.